frustrated!!!!!!!!!!!

what a week. as i start to work more and more with filipino's, i just get so frustrated. my first class started yesterday, my 2 counterparts were supposed to meet me at the high school on friday to check out the venue and set up. after waiting an hour for them, i finally went home -- really pissed off. the next day they were supposed to meet me at my house at 7:45 to help me carry the supplies down to the school so we could set up before class started at 9:00 -- again they didn't show up. so at 8:30 i found someone else to help me carry the stuff down there to set up. i was stressing because the american in me thought we would be pressed for time with setting up and getting everything ready for class. nope. because noone showed up until 9:45, and we had to actually go get the people out of their houses to come. they really do expect a personal invitation. ahhhhh. half of the students decided not to come, they went to the beach instead. some of the students won't even talk to me, they are all so "ashamed". they say they are too "ashamed" to talk to an americana. so i keep asking myself the question, why am i here??? why did these people request me??? why do they want me to teach a class, when they give me no help and we have to go beg people to come??? i'm so frustrated. so erin, nicole and i are spending the night in the city -- just to vent, and take a hot shower.