back to life in the PI

so it's back to life as normal -- well, normal for a filippino -- or peace corp volunteer. i thought going back to the states would be a good break and it was, i just wasn't prepared for the huge emotions that come with leaving the third world and re-entering my old world. it was like waking up from a 10 month coma -- everything was still the same, but so different. or was i different??? that seems to be the big question floating around my head these days. i intended to walk back into my life as i left it, but that was exactly the problem -- i had left my life. it's definately not like going on vacation -- i actually moved all the way to the other side of the world and changed my entire way of living. that reality didn't hit me until i got back to the states and felt like i didn't belong there anymore. it was even more strange to walk back into my hutt and be all alone again, and not just by myself, but really alone. going back to the office really freaked me out aswell -- all of a sudden i am back where i can't understand anyone and everyone is staring at me all of the time. it's such a huge shock to the system -- it's exhausting. so now i have to re-figure everything out and get back into my routine. hmmm.... i'll let you know how it goes.